You are not as you appear. Your depth is so profound you sometimes misinterpret the language of your truest consciousness.
It is a language that is not of this world, but of the deepest primal human/divine consciousness.
Rename your threads of energetic force.
You may have misunderstood that energy.
You may have mislabelled it.
You may be so much freer than you original thought.
You may be something totally different than who you previously thought you were.